Confusion

There are a lot of things going through my head right now. Mostly the fact that I can't clear any of it out. There's a lot going on unfortunately that i can't even clear out of my dreams. There's also a lot I NEED to get out of my system. The truth however beneath a lot of it is that I'm lonely. I'm tired. I'm doing what I need to in my day to day and falling into things that make me feel good for a minute or two, regardless of the big picture. I'm tired. Emotionally. Physically I'm changing. Emotionally I'm maturing, and falling away from some of the old behaviors. I need to move on with my life but at the same time... I'm realizing things change and so do people. Nothing is ever static and no one should be judged off of one moment in time.

Mostly. I'm done. I just want my best friend to live down the street again so I can go lay on her bed and spill everything that's on my brain without over-thinking things. I want to have a second home again.

I know that sounded whiny but that's what on my brain right now. I need to get it out.

Thanks for listening.

~Jessi